I can’t tell you how many titles I wrote for this post and deleted. Grief. Losing a Pet. Heartbreak and many more. However, I landed on the title “Five More Minutes” after pulling up YouTube and seeing country singer Scotty McCreery’s song, “Five More Minutes.” I knew immediately that would be my title.
In a previous post, I mentioned my dog, Gidget, passing away on Friday, October 13th. Well, today, my mom and I went back to the vet for the first time since her passing. For about the last year or so, Gidget had kidney issues and needed fluids every so often. Our vet became our second home and family. I had been dreading going back, because I knew she wouldn’t be going with me. Last night, I dreamt about going and crying the whole time I was there.
My family got our miniature, apricot fur, poodle when I was in the second grade, over 17 years ago. Gidget was a puppy and we grew up together. We became as close as any human and dog could be. She was my everything and best friend. As I sit here writing, tears are streaming down my face.
During that October week, we had no clue it would be her last. On Wednesday, we took her to the vet for fluids and she took a turn for the worse. Between Wednesday and Friday, we were at the vet about four to five times and it was all worth it. I remember the vet telling me on Wednesday that if Gidget didn’t improve, it would be only a few days. Little did I know that would be true. Instead, I thought “come Monday, we’ll say we made it through the few day mark.”
It was shortly before midnight on Friday. I was the only one in the den with Gidget. She was in my arms, her favorite nighttime spot. After some jerking, she let out one more breath and passed away…in my arms. Just two hours before I would have never guessed this is how the day would end.
Gidget was the sweetest, best dog there ever was. Yes, I know I’m bias, but she truly was. She had a personality that was full of life. She was sneaky, funny, and knew what she had to do to get her way. All Gidget had to do was look or do something cute and our hearts would melt. You couldn’t say no to her puppy eyes and beautiful face. Caring for her in the last few months of her life, paying the vet bills, and overcoming every struggle and challenge was all worth it. I would do it again in a heartbeat, without even a second thought.
Going to the vet today was just another reminder that she isn’t here anymore. As I pulled out of the parking lot, I wanted to “hit that pause button and give myself five more minutes.” What I wouldn’t have done to do the same thing that Friday night.
As hard as it is to know Gidget is no longer physically here with me, I know she is still and will forever be in my life. I will one day see her again and then, I’ll be able to give us five more minutes.