Day 1: An Update

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Back in October, I gave a life update on the new journey I was taking. Now, several months later, I decided it was time to provide you with another update.

Life hasn’t truly gotten easier. In January, we had another health scare with my grandmother. At 84-years-old, she got the flu and pneumonia. Hearing the doctor say “she might become one that succumbs to the flu” scares you to death. The two weeks she was in the hospital was full of emotions and prayer. Thankfully, I’m happy to report she is now 85-years-old and went into her first store since December this past Tuesday. Let me tell you, that woman is as tough as nails.

As for my job with the magazine, due to recent budget cuts, my position was eliminated. Yes, I am sad, because this means a decrease in income each month, but I’m also comforted. I’m comforted in thinking that I’m on the edge of finding my passion and what I am meant to do. You may know that I’ve been in graduate school, getting my teaching degree. This past spring, I have been student-teaching and loved every minute of it. Those students were so inspiring and made me want to come to work every day. Along with teaching, I feel as if I will spend this summer and the months afterward doing more of what I love. God only knows where life will take me and I’m confident in His plans.

During October to December, I healed from the stress of my grandmother’s stroke and grief of my dog’s, Gidget, death. Now, I am using these summer months to heal and find myself. In these past few months, I have been grieving; grieving for things in life I may never have and grieving for things I’ll never have again. My depression and anxiety have taken hits in my daily life. Now, I’m going to heal.

Some say writing things publicly makes your commitment to them stronger. Whether that is true or not, I’m going to share the ways I want to heal. I want to write, I want to design, I want to read, I want to take pictures, I want to paint, and I want to go for walks. Darn it; I want to sit and watch a whole movie without doing anything else. To be honest, I can’t remember when the last time was I did some of the things listed above. Life has been busy, and I’m grateful for being given the opportunity to manage work, student teaching, and school. However, I’m ready to sit, listen, and heal.

“I’m choosing happiness over suffering. I know I am. I’m making space for the unknown future to fill up my life with yet-to-come surprises.” -Elizabeth Gilbert, author of “Eat, Pray, Love.” 

xoxo,

Megan

Link to “Day 1” post: https://metaylor.com/2017/10/06/day-1/ 

 

Day 1

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Wow! It has been a while, since I last posted. September flew by and was full of ups and downs. October began full speed ahead and started with a career change. I ended up leaving my full-time job and am now working at home writing and helping manage a local magazine. And you know what, I love it….even though, it has just been one day. That’s right, I am starting something brand new. A new schedule, a new adventure.

Working from home has been something I always wanted to do, but could never figure out how. The promotion in the magazine happened at just the right time. In early September, my grandmother had a stroke. Thankfully, she has regained all of her movement and speech ability. However, she has other health problems that have my family rallying around to help her.

This recent change in my life got me thinking about a lot of different things. It’s funny, I had mixed feelings about leaving my full-time job. I was ready, but sad to see it end. Later that same day, I went to a conference where the speaker talked about endings. Ironic, right? Everything in his presentation connected with me and I knew it was the right time and I had made the right decision to change things up. The speaker was New York Times best-selling author Daniel Pink. Pink spoke how endings are supposed to energize you, help you encode, edit , and elevate. In addition, he said they are supposed to leave you feeling happy and sad. This was the speech I needed to hear to confirm my recent decisions.

My hope is that I can use this time to organize my life, rest what is needed, and get a better gain on who I am as a person. I want to write, I want to take pictures, and I want to get around to doing all of those projects that I have kept pushing further down my to-do list. I am blessed to have a job I can do anywhere. Where I’ll go from here? No one knows, so stay tuned. This is only day 1 of my new journey. I hope you’ll join me.

xoxo,

Megan